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Trying out tumblr
1 min read
Just trying new things out! So here is the link:
www.manonsi.tumblr.com
I do post things I don't in here, mostly rants
So if you want to go and check that out, I'd appreciate it!
Also, I have little to no idea how to use tumblr. So don't judge me x)
www.manonsi.tumblr.com
I do post things I don't in here, mostly rants
So if you want to go and check that out, I'd appreciate it!
Also, I have little to no idea how to use tumblr. So don't judge me x)
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Fears
2 min read
I hate talking in front of audiences. Apparently it's man's biggest fear; and I'm not surprised.
What if they laugh? What if the teacher, in my case, interrupts me and corrects me?
Will I make a fool out of myself?
I once did a talent show with my sister. I was so nervous that for the two weeks before the show I fealt anxiety. I hated it. And the date came closer. I could barely sleep.
But when my time arrived, when I had to go up there, pick my guitar and play, I was completly calm. After days of emotional distress I felt tranquil. I couldn't really see anyone's face, the spotlight was so bright.
I played, like I had practiced, and it didn't go so bad. Friends came afterwards to pat us on the back. And I felt so good.
But class presentations aren't fun. Especially when the teacher targets any possible error and quizzes you in class. At least it won't be long.
Don't you start shaking? I do. Some people balance from foot to foot, or scratch themselves. It's horrible to experience, sad to watch.
And I know that whatever previous practice I do, I'll hate it. Of course, I need to know what I'll say, and I have my papers for that, but the adrenaline rush you get when your name is called and you step up, take your stand and look everyone in the eye - it'll shake the confidence of anyone.
Well, at least mine.
What if they laugh? What if the teacher, in my case, interrupts me and corrects me?
Will I make a fool out of myself?
I once did a talent show with my sister. I was so nervous that for the two weeks before the show I fealt anxiety. I hated it. And the date came closer. I could barely sleep.
But when my time arrived, when I had to go up there, pick my guitar and play, I was completly calm. After days of emotional distress I felt tranquil. I couldn't really see anyone's face, the spotlight was so bright.
I played, like I had practiced, and it didn't go so bad. Friends came afterwards to pat us on the back. And I felt so good.
But class presentations aren't fun. Especially when the teacher targets any possible error and quizzes you in class. At least it won't be long.
Don't you start shaking? I do. Some people balance from foot to foot, or scratch themselves. It's horrible to experience, sad to watch.
And I know that whatever previous practice I do, I'll hate it. Of course, I need to know what I'll say, and I have my papers for that, but the adrenaline rush you get when your name is called and you step up, take your stand and look everyone in the eye - it'll shake the confidence of anyone.
Well, at least mine.
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busy busy busy
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Hi to all! I just want to say that I haven't checked DA for a while, and I probably won't in the short term...
I can't seem to find the time, with work and exams and all..
So sorry for ignoring everyone and not checking your new deviations!
I can't seem to find the time, with work and exams and all..
So sorry for ignoring everyone and not checking your new deviations!
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Favourite Songs
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Here are some of my favourite songs.. They're the ones I consider to be 'chill', to listen and relax with..
1) Wake Up - Coheed and Cambria
It's one of the few songs I can listen to over and over again and never get tired of.. beautiful
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ojasq6…
2) Unwinding Cable Car - Anberlin
I love playing this song on the guitar, it's easy and nice to sing to. I fell in love with this one for a while ^^
www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ei1-v…
3)Half Alive - Secondhand Serenade
Now that was an obsession xD I was young, so this song reminds me of my early teenage years
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ykfius…
4) Drifting - Andy Mckee
If you see the video you'll understand - he's... amazing
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ddn4MG…
1) Wake Up - Coheed and Cambria
It's one of the few songs I can listen to over and over again and never get tired of.. beautiful
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ojasq6…
2) Unwinding Cable Car - Anberlin
I love playing this song on the guitar, it's easy and nice to sing to. I fell in love with this one for a while ^^
www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ei1-v…
3)Half Alive - Secondhand Serenade
Now that was an obsession xD I was young, so this song reminds me of my early teenage years
www.youtube.com/watch?v=ykfius…
4) Drifting - Andy Mckee
If you see the video you'll understand - he's... amazing
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ddn4MG…
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Rant . 'Without You'
2 min read
Another year has seen us pass by
Have you noticed?
It seems I don't actually realize
I lose focus
Swipe away your words with light
Of closen eyed lovers
I dont usually write
About you like I do about others
I'd always have something to complain
And exagerate the tears
To cause myself more pain
To make myself fill with fear
I'd be angry, a storm in a teenger head
Throwing bolts at the silent world
Not once have I said
Or thought of the matching words
To describe you, as you are
With ink and heart
We've reached the end, so far
From our forgotten new start
And I stand holding you
As another random piece of my heart
That pumps these callous words into
The poems I call art
To find that you've always been
The atrium, the vein or the artery
In the organ of love, shy and unseen
Unrewarded, taken for granted, a property
But you're so much more, you know
Without them, the smiles and frowns of everyday
I'd be lost, alone, you know
They've been my air since the first day
You strolled along
Saying "It's okay, you'll get through"
But you're wrong
I couldn't have done it without you
I thought about posting some forgotten personal rants I have lying around my computer. I guess they are poems too shy to read by everyone.. This is just one of many It's for someone really special to me, who might or might not read this some day. Still, I hope that person knows the message of the rant already.
For some reason sharing poems with my friends is extremely difficult for me.. Mainly because I can see their reaction. I wonder if it happens to anybody else here.
Have you noticed?
It seems I don't actually realize
I lose focus
Swipe away your words with light
Of closen eyed lovers
I dont usually write
About you like I do about others
I'd always have something to complain
And exagerate the tears
To cause myself more pain
To make myself fill with fear
I'd be angry, a storm in a teenger head
Throwing bolts at the silent world
Not once have I said
Or thought of the matching words
To describe you, as you are
With ink and heart
We've reached the end, so far
From our forgotten new start
And I stand holding you
As another random piece of my heart
That pumps these callous words into
The poems I call art
To find that you've always been
The atrium, the vein or the artery
In the organ of love, shy and unseen
Unrewarded, taken for granted, a property
But you're so much more, you know
Without them, the smiles and frowns of everyday
I'd be lost, alone, you know
They've been my air since the first day
You strolled along
Saying "It's okay, you'll get through"
But you're wrong
I couldn't have done it without you
I thought about posting some forgotten personal rants I have lying around my computer. I guess they are poems too shy to read by everyone.. This is just one of many
It's for someone really special to me, who might or might not read this some day. Still, I hope that person knows the message of the rant already.For some reason sharing poems with my friends is extremely difficult for me.. Mainly because I can see their reaction. I wonder if it happens to anybody else here.
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